san diego here i come...

i'm sitting in a little coffee shop near my apartment once again - for the last time as far as i can see. but the feeling is bittersweet, unsurprsingly, as most transitions are.

in the past few weeks, i have fallen in love again with nursing. working full-time, one-on-one with great nurses in what will most likely soon rise to be the best hospital in the country (currently ranked 3rd), i awoke to that first passion that motivated me to choose nursing in the first place. the same one that had been stifled and squished almost into non-being by hours upon hours of oppressive lectures and a whole forest's worth of papers carefully explaining my nursing diagnoses and care plans, which i recently discovered, much my chagrin, you never really use in hospital nursing. i connected with countless patients, learned more than i can even describe, and most importantly discovered that i have something to contribute, bridging the gap between new-grad and seasoned nurse and charge nurse and doctors.

i interviewed and was accepted for a position and suddenly the reality of my impending independence and true adulthood has come crashing into my view. but i'm tacitly side-stepping these thoughts of total life overhaul and turning to san diego, displacing the swarming horde of what-ifs that for now at least are politely knocking at the edge of my mind.

on tap for my time near the border: decorating heidi's new space on less than a dime; volunteering with catholic charities; odd jobs around town; climbs and hikes in the nearby hills and parks; and hours upon hours of deep, soul-searching conversations. with all of the tumble of events that have blown my little life from here to there, i'm looking forward whole-heartedly to a few weeks of centered contemplation with a dear friend whose life journey has been inextricably woven into mine.

change is good...